What to do when the only thing you need is a shoulder, not where to cry, but to hold you when you are going to fall, a kind of pillar able to keep you firm and wise... But you just get tired of searching for it. because you feel it is like asking heaven to hide all starts in the night sky, to take away the shine of all of them. And even knowing you will not find that kind of support, you just keep believing that, someday, it will appear; and that is how you feed your faith and you hold on all your hopes.
Well, you do not really want someone who need you to talk about your feelings, you just need somebody who be able to read all the pain that your eyes spread in tears...
but time flies, and all you find are reasons to finally give up
What shall I do when I feel every part of me is slowly dying? When, without water, I feel like I am drowning? When all I want to do is to hurt myself just to feel further all the pain I feel inside me? I guess I can do nothing but missing that happy, warm and fearless part I had before. And even you might think love does not hurt people, it does. It can crush your inside and break you heart into million of pieces but, whatever, you deserve it beacause you were the one who hurted more the other person, the one you fell in love with... But how to redeem myself? That is a good question. Eventhough, I did not asked him to mend me, but to not break me more... I just wanted to find somebody who, even knowing my dark side, helped me to fight my own demons. And it was at the end, when I finally realized that...
you can´t be fixed by the same person who broke you.
